Walking Through The Storms Of Life

It's November 8th already, I've been twenty nine for a whole week today. This is never how I imagined my life to be, when I sit and think about my dreams, lets be real (I sit and think way too much) I don't imagine being married almost seven years with no children in my life, I didn't imagine this heartbreak from the last six years, including losing our angel baby. I never imagined we'd spend almost our entire marriage trying for a baby year after year with no answers and more heartbreak then I've ever felt or sitting with an empty womb. I never imagined watching my friends have three or more children while I'm over here just trying to have one. I didn't ever think about watching my nieces and nephews grow up without my children playing with them. I always thought my sisters and I would have kids around the same time and get to raise them together. I never imagined I'd have any issues getting pregnant. My mother had eleven children for goodness sak...

I've decided to make a new blog, a new place where I can be honest about Infertility, Depression, Anxiety and the struggles I deal with on a daily basis. As well as the happy things in life, my Marriage, my Dog, Daily inspiration and Hope. I look forward to starting a new Chapter with a new blog, a new place to make my own and where I can feel safe to be honest. Tomorrow I turn 29 years old and I just can't believe it. The last 8 years have gone by in the blink of an eye, Thanksgiving is around the corner and Christmas in only two months away. My 7th Wedding Anniversary is on February 12th and my beautiful Dog is somehow already 5 and 1/2 years old.  I can't figure out where the last eight years have gone, my last years in my 20s.  The hardest part of these last seven years of marriage has been losing a child (5th anniversary of our miscarriage in the end of November) and dealing with Infertility for the last 5 and a half years. What's crazy is we should have five ...